IT's confirmed!

Well its confirmed! I have the GREATEST guy that anyone could possibly want! Yesterday as I returned home from going to see Gary at the shop and running some errands, I found a tag on my door. It seems that Carin's flowers....only the best flower shop in the metro area, had left a notice on my door that they had something for me. I called to talk to Kathy and Gary had ordered me flowers because it was one month ago yesterday that we started talking. We had met sometime in June at one of the Vamp races. I have some good friends who race in the same class as Gary and he had come over to BS with everyone after the race back in june. Well me being the nice person that I am, I had invited him and his daughter Holley to go have dinner with all of us. I think there ended up being about 18 to the dinner party. We went to Buffalo Wild Wings (which he didnt even like) we had talked a little but not much. The following monday I had asked my friend Jess if there was a TV above where I was sitting because I kept catching him looking over my way. Well after a month of talking, and getting to know each other, yes there was a TV up there, but he was not looking at it...lol. Well over the summer we had seen each other from time to time at the track and both of us were just to shy to say anything....YES you read that right, I said I was to shy...lol. Something about him wouldnt allow me to walk up and give him my #. well not then anyway. The last in town race of the season he come walking up with Holley and she was COVERED in mud...lol...looked like a good time at the track to me. Well I had asked them again to go to dinner with us....not only had I asked them but others that were going too had. We went to dinner and got sat at oposite sides of the table! That plan didnt work at all...but I made my way to the end of the table at the end of our meal and told him that since Arrow was going out of business that if he needed parts or anything to give me a call. I left him my work # along with my cell...HEY if I am gonna pass on a # gotta make sure he can get me! He called the next day on 10-19 and we have both been hooked since! I dont normally talk on the phone after work but we talked for atleast 2 hours a night every nigth.....that is till we started spending the night with each other, now we lay there talking for hours! It is so great to be happy and I honestly couldnt of asked for a better man!!!!!!! Love ya babe!

Catching up

Well a week has gone by that I have been unemployeed....needless to say, it has not gotten any better. I have sent out resume after resume for no return calls. I thought I had decided to hold out till after the first of the year to get a job but it dont look like that is going to be a real option. When Arrow filed for bankruptcy they had stated that they would start our unemployment filings on the last day. Well on Wed, I had called to see if that was true, of course not! So I filed and now since I am in school I have to fill out some form and they have to review it, setting me back about 2 weeks before I can start to get paid. I just dont get it! Arrow sold our no compete clauses so we cant work pretty much anywhere that has to deal with the automotive industry. I feel like I have been sold like a slave! So I sit here no money and non coming in anytime soon. Another thing is that I have decided to cash in my 401K, I know not the smartest, and I have to wait for Arrow to sign off on that as well. Im sure that will be done in a timley manner. NOT! And to top things off Arrow was supposed to pay us for some spiff parts that we sold, and an extra weeks commission. Well I didnt get either on my paycheck friday! I just dont see how the owner can sleep at night knowing that people are going to lose everything that they have worked so hard to get, and he is going to be able to keep EVERYTHING! Plus still have a job! OK, to switch to a happy note! I have mentioned Gary before. I honestly dont know how I would get thru all this without him. He is such a great guy. Since I am going to be cashing in my 401K Gary is going to help me keep afloat untill I either get a job or my money from that. The other morning when leaving his house he had set me out a set of keys. I thought I was going to cry. I guess over the past few years I have grown acustomed to someone not wating to share anything that they had with me. Now I have a great guy, who loves my son, willing to share his life and posessions, and wants to help me out when needed. Can it get any better??? It sure dont seem like it! I think I had forgotten what it was like to be happy, and I am that for sure!!! I think that Trenton is too! He has been so much happier, sleeping by himself almost all night, and ask Gary to cary him from time to time. So maybe that is my silver lining to this cloud! Well I am off to go do some more cleaning. Check back soon!

New Beginnings!

Well today is the first day that I am unemployeed. I HATE IT!!! I am already bored! I dont really see how stay at home moms do it! I love being home with Trenton but since most of you know I dont care for cleaning..I dont really have much else to do! This weekend has been a pretty relaxing one. We (Gary and I) was supposed to go race yesterday but it was to cold, so we just spend the day hanging with Trenton and getting me a new wireless card, so that I can have contact with the outside world...lol. I know I havent said much about Gary, but what a great guy. I cant wait for my friends and the rest of my family to meet him.
Trenton is definatly in his terrible 2's!!!! Although he can drive me nuts he is still the love of my life! His smile can brighten even the dullest of days! Here is a picture of him playing in the bathtub, and yes its work safe! lol. He is growing like a weed and getting more and more of a personality everyday! It amazes me how much kids understand. I also had Gary's little girl Holley for a little while on Friday morning. She is such a cutie as well. 6 years old going on 18. Smart as can be!!! and dont miss a thing! Well that is all from my uneventfull weekend, but check back soon!

When is enough, enough?

I just do not understand people these days. Why is it all, name calling, bad mouthing and being just plain nasty when things dont work out? I am sure most of you know that I have kicked out JR, due to several reasons and just finally had enough. Why can't two adults agree that there is nothing that is going to change in the future and go about living seperately, but still have the best interest of the child at hand? I feel that I have been more than helpfull to him, I have offered to help him furnish his new apartment that he dont want to tell me where it is, and I have tried to work around his work schedule to do what is right and let him spend as much time with his son that he would like. All I get in return is bumps in the road, ok more like pot holes, on a gravel road! There is no working with me at all. Today I was told that he was sorry that he gave his son a mother who was such a selfish person and didnt care about anything other than partying, the guys around her and not her son. As many crappy things that he has done to me, I think this has to be the crappiest...if that is a word. I would never want my son to have a different dad. If he did, he wouldnt be the beautiful, caring baby boy he is! I truely believe that everything happens for a reason! I believe that JR was brought into my life to give me this little rug rat, that steals my heart more and more every day!

OK, enough about that, Tomorrow is Halloween and I have a clip of what is to come. Here is Trenton in his lil stinker costume at the Church carnival. He is such a cutie! I cant wait to have him out going door to door, but I know he wont say anything...lol. So keep in tune for some more Halloween pics as well as pics from the weekend at the track. See ya soon!

What a GREAT weekend!

Well as much as I miss Trenton I just had one of the best weekend that I have had in a VERY long time! Friday night I finally got a call from my Friend Carrie, she wanted to go out. Well ok, we started out at the new club on Noland called Dallas.......yeah that was nothing like I thought it was going to be. I think at 10:30 there was a whole 10 people in there....so we left. Carrie had called a friend of hers who I had actually gone to school with. So we went to go meet them at a place called The Back Door....which is a room in the back of a gas station that they call a bar...lol. (at the corner of 291 and 210) We were there till they started doing karoke, and well, lets just say that Rednecks cant sing so well when they dont have a mouth full of teeth...lol. We then proceded to a place called Antonettes, not much better but atleast it was bigger, room to dance and a decent band. It was so much fun to go out with people who I hadnt seen in FOREVER, especially, my very first boyfriend...Danny Wright. It was like stepping back into 7th grade. ahhhh the step back in time.

Sunday came WAY to soon and I was to be at the drag strip at 9am. I made it, surprisingly! Some good friends of mine had one of their best runs ever! Alan hooked so good that it stood that car right up on the bumper! It was awesome!!!! Mike didnt do so good on his runs, but after buying back in (with a little help from me..lol) he was paired up next to Raia, someone who most know I dont really care for and beat her! it was the best 20.00 I had spent in a long time!!! After the track we all went to eat at O'Charleys....that poor waitress, but we had a great time. I was told that someone would give me 10.00 to eat about a 7" peice of pure sugar cane.....well lets just say that if your dared to do that, I wouldnt....lol YUCK! but I did get my 10 bucks! lol (Thanks jackstand!) We had a great time, I met some new friends and got to talk to people who I didnt know so well. All in all a GREAT weekend!

MISSING MY BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It is amazing to me how with everything going on, I have time to miss Trenton. Last night when I came home from school, I laid on the couch and just about broke into tears thinking about how much I missed him. I was even watching his nightly cartoon Caillou. lol. He will be back on Monday so that is all I can look forward too at this time. I have some GREAT ideas for pictures once the leaves start to fall. Good ole family fun!

Also another big thing going on. As I had mentioned before that Arrow will be closing for good as of Oct 13th. I have been searching for a job and have had no luck so far. Well, I have decided to go into nursing! I love the EMT class that I am taking, and I had planned on going to paramedic school, but I can spend just about the same amount of time doing that as I can becoming a RN and make twice the amount of $, with many more job options. So I am going to take a small class to get my CNA, work part time somewhere, doing something...not sure on that yet, then after the class get a job at the hospital. Work there while going to school for the RN and hit the ground running in a couple of years! I am so excited!

Its been a while!

Well I know, its been a while since I have posted anything. Well I am glad to say that I now have internet acess at home!!! I know I am finally stepping into the real world. I just wanted to post a pic or two of me and Trenton. He is down at Cloud 9 Ranch enjoying some fall weather right now....lucky dog!!! Check back soon for more updates!