Moving on out!!!! WAY OUT!

It has been a long and exhausting weekend. Starting on Friday night I went shopping with Gary's friend Rob's wife. We shopped for like 5 hours and hit 5 stores...I am still not done! I am lucky though that I get to go during the day and finish mine up when other people are working! (although a paycheck would be nice...lol) Saturday we got up and moved a few things out at Gary's house for him to take up to his ex wife. While at my house my mom was packing away. I am so lucky to have a mom who is so helpfull and dont expect anything in return, although I did give her my old furniture. I dont know what I would do without my parents! So the rest of saturday we packed and moved me out to Gary's. As of December 31, I will be OUT of the duplex! And a resident of Odessa....wow talk about a change! Sunday was mostly just figuring out where to put what!!!! This is a big change for me a small town 30 miles away from my parents and not working. I am starting to really like it! hahaha...I have been doing my clinicals and I have decided to go into the fire fighting class at the first of the year. I have so much to be thankfull for as the end of the year rolls around. I have the BEST man that anyone could possibly want in my life right now, great parents who help me out as much as they possibly can....and the BEST friends who support me no matter what I decide to do! It dont get much better than this!!!! So as I move on out of the duplex, I am moving WAY OUT to Odessa....dont forget me way out here in the sticks!

First day of clinicals!

WOW, yesterday was a GREAT day. It was the first day that I went into do my EMT clinicals. I was working at St Mary's ER from 7am to 7pm with a 30 min lunch....now that part dont seem right to me, but I didnt mind since I didnt want to miss anything!!! I started out the day just following one guy named Johnny around. Nice guy, very helpfull but then I kept getting side tracked on diffrent things...so I ended up working with everyone! A GREAT group of workers! First patient of the day was a fall with a broken hip, that poor lady. I feel so bad for the people but at the same time, know that what I am doing is helping them so it keeps me motivated! The second one was an older lady who was having chest pain, or as she wanted to say, chest "stiffness". Well that is not a good sign and unfortunatly (for her) she WAS having a MI (or heart attack) she was probably one of the best patients I have ever heard or seen anywhere. I intercepted her when she came into the ER and I did not leave her side till she was thru surgery and resting in ICU! WHAT a GREAT process to be able to see. Now to back up a second...yep you heard me right. They had to go in and put the balloon in her artery and install a stint. I sat right behind the doc the whole time, and his assistant gave me a play by play on EVERYTHING!!!! It was probably one of the best things I have EVER seen!!!!! although, I could of done without wearing the lead suit! wholey cow those are heavy!!!!!! The whole process took about an hour, crazy how someone can be knocking on heavens door and then with a simple "roto rooter" process they feel 100% better!!! This patient told me at one time that she was in so much pain that she was about to give up. I calmly looked at her and told her she was not going to do so, that we would have her up and whipping her husband back into shape in no time! she laughed and after it was all said and done, promised me that she would never give up again. It was an AWESOME feeling knowing that I was there while they saved this ladies life! OK, for the downer of the day....I had to help them get blood from a 2mo old baby........YES 2MO OLD!!!! his lil veins were so small, and he screamed to high heaven, it about broke my heart! Also another cool thing that I got to see was a spinal tap being performed....I have had procedures like that done SEVERAL times with my back problems and it was really cool to be able to see it actually being done. Now I am torn on if I should go for nursing...or stick to the EMT/Paramedic side....oh decisions decisions....lol. I beleive I have found one more thing to make my life complete! wow, this year a new home, new man, and a new career......look out here comes a new GENNEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My year is full of "NEW" everything!!!!

Its funny to me how when things are going bad and you think that you have reached the bottom of the barrell...its really hard to stop to think that things will get better. I know, I have been there most of the year this year. But this Thanksgiving, there have been a whole set of "NEW"" for me that I am so thankfull for! On Wed before Thanksgiving, Gary and I went out to Longview lake to watch the fireworks display. We had no kids, and as we sat there, we felt guilty doing something that they would of liked as well. But it was a great night, sitting in the truck wrapped around his arm watching the fireworks. We had tried to sit outside on the tailgate, but since we are not so smart sometimes we didnt take coats...so it was a little chilly! After that we drove around for a while talking and just enjoying each others company! What a great night!!!

On Thanksgiving, Gary, Holley and I went to my aunts house for dinner, then off to his moms to visit. Nothing spectacular, but it was nice to have the feel of a family again. Although we didnt have Trenton for dinner at my aunts, we had him when we went to go to Gary's moms. Oh did I mention that for some reason the KC star was not delivered to Odessa....come on, I know its a ways out there but gesh!!!!

Friday morning I got up bright and early....ok, well it wasnt bright...cause the sun is not up at 3AM!!! But me and my dad went out to brave the crazies shopping on black friday! Me and my dad dont do a whole lot together but this was one thing that we have been doing since Trenton was born. I love the time that we spend together! I have the best family!

Saturday, Gary's friend Rob came out like he does every saturday. Its funny that they have been friends since they were in preschool, and make time atleast one day of the weekend to spend together....NO WHY DONT WE DO THAT!!!! hahaha...sorry I think he person that was inteded to knows who I am talking about! But....while they hung garage doors and whatever else they did, I took the kiddos to Wal mart and then back home to play. I left to go back to my duplex in the early afternoon so that I could clean up, but my mom, God love her!, had already been by, cleaned up my house and let my dog out! did I mention that I had the BEST family!!!! Then Saturday night my parents wanted to keep Trenton since they dont get to see him NEAR as much as they used to,....so we dropped him off. Gary, Holley and I went out to a friends house, did some BSing had a few (to many) drinks and just enjoyed the company!

Sunday rolls around and we have NOTHING planned for once....normally we dont have both kids on Sunday so we got up, went and got trenton, went and ate then off to Burr Oak Woods. My aunt used to take me and my cousing there when we were about Trenton and Holleys age....they loved it....just as I used to. I cant wait for spring so that we can go walking on the trails. Then home to try and take a nap...YEAH RIGHT!!! In the evening we decided to put up the Christmas tree...Here is the finished product...and my two little monkeys!!! I will have to come back and post the pics, my computer wont let me!

Weekend fun!

Well I must say that other than the drama with JR, which im sure you all can imagine, I had a GREAT weekend. Sunday was the street tire race at the drag strip and the first time that me and Gary had been at our home track as a couple. It was a blast. ITs nice to be with someone who you dont have to entertain the whole time you are with them. Or to be introduced to people that you might not know and the other does. Not quite used to that. Well I seem some people at the track that I hadnt seen in a long time, that I used to be good friends with. Then just being around someone who likes your company, who is proud to have you around and includes you in on EVERYTHING that is going on, makes it that much better! Gary did really well at the race, it was close between 4 people and he ended up takin 2nd. I was still really proud of him, I think he did a great job with how the weather was and the lack of track prep. Next time, I am in the car, or so I am told. But I think that I am ready to do so and kick some ass at it! Not sure if I will be in his car, or an S10 that is being built, but I will be running something come next year. CANT WAIT!!!!! After the race we all went out to dinner like we normally do, and had great company there as well. I have some of the best groups of friends that anyone could ask for. Even if it wasnt the regualr "clique" that I hung around.

IT's confirmed!

Well its confirmed! I have the GREATEST guy that anyone could possibly want! Yesterday as I returned home from going to see Gary at the shop and running some errands, I found a tag on my door. It seems that Carin's flowers....only the best flower shop in the metro area, had left a notice on my door that they had something for me. I called to talk to Kathy and Gary had ordered me flowers because it was one month ago yesterday that we started talking. We had met sometime in June at one of the Vamp races. I have some good friends who race in the same class as Gary and he had come over to BS with everyone after the race back in june. Well me being the nice person that I am, I had invited him and his daughter Holley to go have dinner with all of us. I think there ended up being about 18 to the dinner party. We went to Buffalo Wild Wings (which he didnt even like) we had talked a little but not much. The following monday I had asked my friend Jess if there was a TV above where I was sitting because I kept catching him looking over my way. Well after a month of talking, and getting to know each other, yes there was a TV up there, but he was not looking at it...lol. Well over the summer we had seen each other from time to time at the track and both of us were just to shy to say anything....YES you read that right, I said I was to shy...lol. Something about him wouldnt allow me to walk up and give him my #. well not then anyway. The last in town race of the season he come walking up with Holley and she was COVERED in mud...lol...looked like a good time at the track to me. Well I had asked them again to go to dinner with us....not only had I asked them but others that were going too had. We went to dinner and got sat at oposite sides of the table! That plan didnt work at all...but I made my way to the end of the table at the end of our meal and told him that since Arrow was going out of business that if he needed parts or anything to give me a call. I left him my work # along with my cell...HEY if I am gonna pass on a # gotta make sure he can get me! He called the next day on 10-19 and we have both been hooked since! I dont normally talk on the phone after work but we talked for atleast 2 hours a night every nigth.....that is till we started spending the night with each other, now we lay there talking for hours! It is so great to be happy and I honestly couldnt of asked for a better man!!!!!!! Love ya babe!

Catching up

Well a week has gone by that I have been unemployeed....needless to say, it has not gotten any better. I have sent out resume after resume for no return calls. I thought I had decided to hold out till after the first of the year to get a job but it dont look like that is going to be a real option. When Arrow filed for bankruptcy they had stated that they would start our unemployment filings on the last day. Well on Wed, I had called to see if that was true, of course not! So I filed and now since I am in school I have to fill out some form and they have to review it, setting me back about 2 weeks before I can start to get paid. I just dont get it! Arrow sold our no compete clauses so we cant work pretty much anywhere that has to deal with the automotive industry. I feel like I have been sold like a slave! So I sit here no money and non coming in anytime soon. Another thing is that I have decided to cash in my 401K, I know not the smartest, and I have to wait for Arrow to sign off on that as well. Im sure that will be done in a timley manner. NOT! And to top things off Arrow was supposed to pay us for some spiff parts that we sold, and an extra weeks commission. Well I didnt get either on my paycheck friday! I just dont see how the owner can sleep at night knowing that people are going to lose everything that they have worked so hard to get, and he is going to be able to keep EVERYTHING! Plus still have a job! OK, to switch to a happy note! I have mentioned Gary before. I honestly dont know how I would get thru all this without him. He is such a great guy. Since I am going to be cashing in my 401K Gary is going to help me keep afloat untill I either get a job or my money from that. The other morning when leaving his house he had set me out a set of keys. I thought I was going to cry. I guess over the past few years I have grown acustomed to someone not wating to share anything that they had with me. Now I have a great guy, who loves my son, willing to share his life and posessions, and wants to help me out when needed. Can it get any better??? It sure dont seem like it! I think I had forgotten what it was like to be happy, and I am that for sure!!! I think that Trenton is too! He has been so much happier, sleeping by himself almost all night, and ask Gary to cary him from time to time. So maybe that is my silver lining to this cloud! Well I am off to go do some more cleaning. Check back soon!

New Beginnings!

Well today is the first day that I am unemployeed. I HATE IT!!! I am already bored! I dont really see how stay at home moms do it! I love being home with Trenton but since most of you know I dont care for cleaning..I dont really have much else to do! This weekend has been a pretty relaxing one. We (Gary and I) was supposed to go race yesterday but it was to cold, so we just spend the day hanging with Trenton and getting me a new wireless card, so that I can have contact with the outside world...lol. I know I havent said much about Gary, but what a great guy. I cant wait for my friends and the rest of my family to meet him.
Trenton is definatly in his terrible 2's!!!! Although he can drive me nuts he is still the love of my life! His smile can brighten even the dullest of days! Here is a picture of him playing in the bathtub, and yes its work safe! lol. He is growing like a weed and getting more and more of a personality everyday! It amazes me how much kids understand. I also had Gary's little girl Holley for a little while on Friday morning. She is such a cutie as well. 6 years old going on 18. Smart as can be!!! and dont miss a thing! Well that is all from my uneventfull weekend, but check back soon!

When is enough, enough?

I just do not understand people these days. Why is it all, name calling, bad mouthing and being just plain nasty when things dont work out? I am sure most of you know that I have kicked out JR, due to several reasons and just finally had enough. Why can't two adults agree that there is nothing that is going to change in the future and go about living seperately, but still have the best interest of the child at hand? I feel that I have been more than helpfull to him, I have offered to help him furnish his new apartment that he dont want to tell me where it is, and I have tried to work around his work schedule to do what is right and let him spend as much time with his son that he would like. All I get in return is bumps in the road, ok more like pot holes, on a gravel road! There is no working with me at all. Today I was told that he was sorry that he gave his son a mother who was such a selfish person and didnt care about anything other than partying, the guys around her and not her son. As many crappy things that he has done to me, I think this has to be the crappiest...if that is a word. I would never want my son to have a different dad. If he did, he wouldnt be the beautiful, caring baby boy he is! I truely believe that everything happens for a reason! I believe that JR was brought into my life to give me this little rug rat, that steals my heart more and more every day!

OK, enough about that, Tomorrow is Halloween and I have a clip of what is to come. Here is Trenton in his lil stinker costume at the Church carnival. He is such a cutie! I cant wait to have him out going door to door, but I know he wont say anything...lol. So keep in tune for some more Halloween pics as well as pics from the weekend at the track. See ya soon!

What a GREAT weekend!

Well as much as I miss Trenton I just had one of the best weekend that I have had in a VERY long time! Friday night I finally got a call from my Friend Carrie, she wanted to go out. Well ok, we started out at the new club on Noland called Dallas.......yeah that was nothing like I thought it was going to be. I think at 10:30 there was a whole 10 people in there....so we left. Carrie had called a friend of hers who I had actually gone to school with. So we went to go meet them at a place called The Back Door....which is a room in the back of a gas station that they call a bar...lol. (at the corner of 291 and 210) We were there till they started doing karoke, and well, lets just say that Rednecks cant sing so well when they dont have a mouth full of teeth...lol. We then proceded to a place called Antonettes, not much better but atleast it was bigger, room to dance and a decent band. It was so much fun to go out with people who I hadnt seen in FOREVER, especially, my very first boyfriend...Danny Wright. It was like stepping back into 7th grade. ahhhh the step back in time.

Sunday came WAY to soon and I was to be at the drag strip at 9am. I made it, surprisingly! Some good friends of mine had one of their best runs ever! Alan hooked so good that it stood that car right up on the bumper! It was awesome!!!! Mike didnt do so good on his runs, but after buying back in (with a little help from me..lol) he was paired up next to Raia, someone who most know I dont really care for and beat her! it was the best 20.00 I had spent in a long time!!! After the track we all went to eat at O'Charleys....that poor waitress, but we had a great time. I was told that someone would give me 10.00 to eat about a 7" peice of pure sugar cane.....well lets just say that if your dared to do that, I wouldnt....lol YUCK! but I did get my 10 bucks! lol (Thanks jackstand!) We had a great time, I met some new friends and got to talk to people who I didnt know so well. All in all a GREAT weekend!

MISSING MY BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It is amazing to me how with everything going on, I have time to miss Trenton. Last night when I came home from school, I laid on the couch and just about broke into tears thinking about how much I missed him. I was even watching his nightly cartoon Caillou. lol. He will be back on Monday so that is all I can look forward too at this time. I have some GREAT ideas for pictures once the leaves start to fall. Good ole family fun!

Also another big thing going on. As I had mentioned before that Arrow will be closing for good as of Oct 13th. I have been searching for a job and have had no luck so far. Well, I have decided to go into nursing! I love the EMT class that I am taking, and I had planned on going to paramedic school, but I can spend just about the same amount of time doing that as I can becoming a RN and make twice the amount of $, with many more job options. So I am going to take a small class to get my CNA, work part time somewhere, doing something...not sure on that yet, then after the class get a job at the hospital. Work there while going to school for the RN and hit the ground running in a couple of years! I am so excited!

Its been a while!

Well I know, its been a while since I have posted anything. Well I am glad to say that I now have internet acess at home!!! I know I am finally stepping into the real world. I just wanted to post a pic or two of me and Trenton. He is down at Cloud 9 Ranch enjoying some fall weather right now....lucky dog!!! Check back soon for more updates!

He is growing up so fast! :(

Last night I had gotten out of school early, went and picked Trenton up from my moms and went home. When I get to my parents house, it is the best feeling in the world to see Trenton come running from the other side of the room to great you with BIG HUGS! We went home, Trenton must of been tired. He climbed up on the couch with me and we started watching cartoons, within minutes he was dead alseep. I can always tell when he is OUT cause his body starts doing this little jerking motions.....just like his daddy! lol Once he was out, I took him in, laid him in his bed, where he remained till...........get this.........6:15AM!!!!!!!!!!!! He did wake up once crying in his sleep and I went in, patted his leg and out he went....but he slept in his toddler bed ALL NIGHT LONG!!!!!! I was so excited this morning!

As I was getting ready for work, Trenton comes into the bathroom, grabs his potty seat and sits it on the toilet. Wholey COW!!! I sat him up there and handed him a book, cause that is what guys to right? He sat there, looked at his book, but never did anything. He still got 1 piece
of candy corn for sitting up there though. (I know huge treat right? LOL) Im sure he will get the hang of it soon. I just dont know if I can handle my lil baby growing up so fast!!!!!!!!!!

BLACK Monday!

Well, I was so excited to come in and put up a lil update of my weekend,.,.,. then we get bad new....SO the bad news first. As of Oct 31 Arrow Speed will no longer be in business. They are closing the doors and yes as of right now that means that there are several of us who are without a job. Am I upset, sure, but what can you really do? So I am just looking at it as "Everything Happens for a Reason" I will go apply at out competitor, but then again so are 30 other people....so nothing is for sure. But I will find something eventually...if not. Look out Mcy D's here I come!!! LOL

OK, on a lighter note. I had a garage sale this weekend.....WOW is that hard work! I made about 100.00, not the best one I have had but hey, its 100 more than I had and some less junk than I had..lol. Trenton really wasnt that bad to deal with either....he had toys to play with and LOVED it when other little kids came to the sale....he is such a little ham!

Yesterday we didnt do much other than chill at home and keep it on the down low...lol. I got my computer back but I still dont have good internet reception. So I am going to see if JR will let me use the wireless card too.....hopefully that when I dont have a job I can use the home computer to keep you all updated!

Well, say a prayer (or two) for me and I will keep you updated!!!

Big Boy Potty!

Trenton is hitting another milestone is his life. He is starting to go from diapers to the big boy potty! Last Saturday we went over to a friends house who has a 3 year old little girl. Well she went in to use the big girl potty and he walked in on her....LOL. Well moments later he was saying that he wanted to sit on it!!!! YIPPPEEE!!!! So last night we went and let him pick out his own potty. Of course since he loves ducks, he got the one with ducks on it. He has sat on it a few times, but has yet to use it. But I am just happy that he is showing interest in it! Bless his little heart, this morning he got up early, so while I was getting ready I put him on his potty. He sat and sat and sat.......nothing...but that is ok. Then I put his diaper on, and got ready to get him dressed..What do ya know...WET! UGH! so close!!!!!!!!!!! But this is just the start so I cant be mad at him. Next step....mickey mouse undies!!!!

Im trying to decide if it would be wrong for me to do what Kate did (off Jon and Kate + 8) And take a picture of him, on the potty and once he used it....lol. I am just so excited that he is taking that next step........but it also means, my baby is growing up :(

On another note, JR has taken my computer up to have it fixed. SO, that means that I SHOULD start to have internet acess at home soon! Im so excited, now maybe I can get all the cute pictures of Trenton posted! check back for more updates!

I'm gonna be one of the COOL ones!

Well the ones who will read this are the ones who probably have a blogspot as well. So I am going to be JUST LIKE YOU....the cool ones! lol. I like to write down what im thinking, and how Trenton is doing, I just normally do it on Myspace. Well I am not all about the popularity of the myspace and facebook's, although I do have an account on both. So I came here! Hopefully I will have computer acess soon at home and be able to post many more pictures of Trenton too! Enjoy!