When is enough, enough?

I just do not understand people these days. Why is it all, name calling, bad mouthing and being just plain nasty when things dont work out? I am sure most of you know that I have kicked out JR, due to several reasons and just finally had enough. Why can't two adults agree that there is nothing that is going to change in the future and go about living seperately, but still have the best interest of the child at hand? I feel that I have been more than helpfull to him, I have offered to help him furnish his new apartment that he dont want to tell me where it is, and I have tried to work around his work schedule to do what is right and let him spend as much time with his son that he would like. All I get in return is bumps in the road, ok more like pot holes, on a gravel road! There is no working with me at all. Today I was told that he was sorry that he gave his son a mother who was such a selfish person and didnt care about anything other than partying, the guys around her and not her son. As many crappy things that he has done to me, I think this has to be the crappiest...if that is a word. I would never want my son to have a different dad. If he did, he wouldnt be the beautiful, caring baby boy he is! I truely believe that everything happens for a reason! I believe that JR was brought into my life to give me this little rug rat, that steals my heart more and more every day!

OK, enough about that, Tomorrow is Halloween and I have a clip of what is to come. Here is Trenton in his lil stinker costume at the Church carnival. He is such a cutie! I cant wait to have him out going door to door, but I know he wont say anything...lol. So keep in tune for some more Halloween pics as well as pics from the weekend at the track. See ya soon!

What a GREAT weekend!

Well as much as I miss Trenton I just had one of the best weekend that I have had in a VERY long time! Friday night I finally got a call from my Friend Carrie, she wanted to go out. Well ok, we started out at the new club on Noland called Dallas.......yeah that was nothing like I thought it was going to be. I think at 10:30 there was a whole 10 people in there....so we left. Carrie had called a friend of hers who I had actually gone to school with. So we went to go meet them at a place called The Back Door....which is a room in the back of a gas station that they call a bar...lol. (at the corner of 291 and 210) We were there till they started doing karoke, and well, lets just say that Rednecks cant sing so well when they dont have a mouth full of teeth...lol. We then proceded to a place called Antonettes, not much better but atleast it was bigger, room to dance and a decent band. It was so much fun to go out with people who I hadnt seen in FOREVER, especially, my very first boyfriend...Danny Wright. It was like stepping back into 7th grade. ahhhh the step back in time.

Sunday came WAY to soon and I was to be at the drag strip at 9am. I made it, surprisingly! Some good friends of mine had one of their best runs ever! Alan hooked so good that it stood that car right up on the bumper! It was awesome!!!! Mike didnt do so good on his runs, but after buying back in (with a little help from me..lol) he was paired up next to Raia, someone who most know I dont really care for and beat her! it was the best 20.00 I had spent in a long time!!! After the track we all went to eat at O'Charleys....that poor waitress, but we had a great time. I was told that someone would give me 10.00 to eat about a 7" peice of pure sugar cane.....well lets just say that if your dared to do that, I wouldnt....lol YUCK! but I did get my 10 bucks! lol (Thanks jackstand!) We had a great time, I met some new friends and got to talk to people who I didnt know so well. All in all a GREAT weekend!

MISSING MY BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It is amazing to me how with everything going on, I have time to miss Trenton. Last night when I came home from school, I laid on the couch and just about broke into tears thinking about how much I missed him. I was even watching his nightly cartoon Caillou. lol. He will be back on Monday so that is all I can look forward too at this time. I have some GREAT ideas for pictures once the leaves start to fall. Good ole family fun!

Also another big thing going on. As I had mentioned before that Arrow will be closing for good as of Oct 13th. I have been searching for a job and have had no luck so far. Well, I have decided to go into nursing! I love the EMT class that I am taking, and I had planned on going to paramedic school, but I can spend just about the same amount of time doing that as I can becoming a RN and make twice the amount of $, with many more job options. So I am going to take a small class to get my CNA, work part time somewhere, doing something...not sure on that yet, then after the class get a job at the hospital. Work there while going to school for the RN and hit the ground running in a couple of years! I am so excited!

Its been a while!

Well I know, its been a while since I have posted anything. Well I am glad to say that I now have internet acess at home!!! I know I am finally stepping into the real world. I just wanted to post a pic or two of me and Trenton. He is down at Cloud 9 Ranch enjoying some fall weather right now....lucky dog!!! Check back soon for more updates!

He is growing up so fast! :(

Last night I had gotten out of school early, went and picked Trenton up from my moms and went home. When I get to my parents house, it is the best feeling in the world to see Trenton come running from the other side of the room to great you with BIG HUGS! We went home, Trenton must of been tired. He climbed up on the couch with me and we started watching cartoons, within minutes he was dead alseep. I can always tell when he is OUT cause his body starts doing this little jerking motions.....just like his daddy! lol Once he was out, I took him in, laid him in his bed, where he remained till...........get this.........6:15AM!!!!!!!!!!!! He did wake up once crying in his sleep and I went in, patted his leg and out he went....but he slept in his toddler bed ALL NIGHT LONG!!!!!! I was so excited this morning!

As I was getting ready for work, Trenton comes into the bathroom, grabs his potty seat and sits it on the toilet. Wholey COW!!! I sat him up there and handed him a book, cause that is what guys to right? He sat there, looked at his book, but never did anything. He still got 1 piece
of candy corn for sitting up there though. (I know huge treat right? LOL) Im sure he will get the hang of it soon. I just dont know if I can handle my lil baby growing up so fast!!!!!!!!!!

BLACK Monday!

Well, I was so excited to come in and put up a lil update of my weekend,.,.,. then we get bad new....SO the bad news first. As of Oct 31 Arrow Speed will no longer be in business. They are closing the doors and yes as of right now that means that there are several of us who are without a job. Am I upset, sure, but what can you really do? So I am just looking at it as "Everything Happens for a Reason" I will go apply at out competitor, but then again so are 30 other people....so nothing is for sure. But I will find something eventually...if not. Look out Mcy D's here I come!!! LOL

OK, on a lighter note. I had a garage sale this weekend.....WOW is that hard work! I made about 100.00, not the best one I have had but hey, its 100 more than I had and some less junk than I had..lol. Trenton really wasnt that bad to deal with either....he had toys to play with and LOVED it when other little kids came to the sale....he is such a little ham!

Yesterday we didnt do much other than chill at home and keep it on the down low...lol. I got my computer back but I still dont have good internet reception. So I am going to see if JR will let me use the wireless card too.....hopefully that when I dont have a job I can use the home computer to keep you all updated!

Well, say a prayer (or two) for me and I will keep you updated!!!

Big Boy Potty!

Trenton is hitting another milestone is his life. He is starting to go from diapers to the big boy potty! Last Saturday we went over to a friends house who has a 3 year old little girl. Well she went in to use the big girl potty and he walked in on her....LOL. Well moments later he was saying that he wanted to sit on it!!!! YIPPPEEE!!!! So last night we went and let him pick out his own potty. Of course since he loves ducks, he got the one with ducks on it. He has sat on it a few times, but has yet to use it. But I am just happy that he is showing interest in it! Bless his little heart, this morning he got up early, so while I was getting ready I put him on his potty. He sat and sat and sat.......nothing...but that is ok. Then I put his diaper on, and got ready to get him dressed..What do ya know...WET! UGH! so close!!!!!!!!!!! But this is just the start so I cant be mad at him. Next step....mickey mouse undies!!!!

Im trying to decide if it would be wrong for me to do what Kate did (off Jon and Kate + 8) And take a picture of him, on the potty and once he used it....lol. I am just so excited that he is taking that next step........but it also means, my baby is growing up :(

On another note, JR has taken my computer up to have it fixed. SO, that means that I SHOULD start to have internet acess at home soon! Im so excited, now maybe I can get all the cute pictures of Trenton posted! check back for more updates!